I’ve known Rick on the internet since about 1996 from early video game message boards that were more imageboards than actual discussion boards. All the way from there to AGSF2, his own board, Sailor Moon fanboards, AIM, SRK, live meetups, tournaments (from Pentland all the way up to Evo), just to hang out. On and on and on.
The whole time I knew him and basically his whole life, he was living with health problems and it was always right around the corner. I can’t know what he was going through on the inside, but I know how he handled himself around his friends and for that, I’m glad. Where a lot of other people would have just put their heads down and waited for it to end, Rick went out and lived his life and didn’t let health problems get him down. He wanted to go hang out with the guys, he went. He wanted to go travel thousands of miles from home to hang out with some chick, he went. He wanted to play Marvel at SHGL, he went. One year when things weren’t looking so good (2004 I think), he was spending most of his time in a wheelchair. But he wanted to go to Evo and hang out and compete a little, so he went. There are even a bunch of pictures of people popping wheelies in his chair while he’s looking on smiling. Other people might get pissed at that and think it’s disrespectful, but there he is in the picture smiling. Having fun with his friends, not letting his health beat him, even though things were looking bad.
That’s what Rick was about. There were a lot of tough times for him I’m sure. Talking with him on AIM many years ago and hearing about how awful the dialysis process was…that shit was heartbreaking and you knew it was only getting worse. By the end, he was basically just letting doctors try all kinds of new pills and treatments on him because they were out of ideas but he was still getting out there, doing what he wanted.
And for that, I’m glad. I’m glad that even though he had this hanging over his head since he was a kid, he still got to experience so many good things. I’m glad he got to experience what it’s like to win a tournament. I remember talking with him about it and he was trying to make it seem like it was no big deal, but I knew he was pumped up about it. I’m glad he got to meet up with his girl and live a little. Hell, I’m glad he got to play SF4. Hella years ago we would joke about that. That it would just be his luck that SF4 would finally come out after he was gone. But he made it and he even went out to the arcades and stood in the 15 man deep lines, even though it was rough for him. I only wish Honda was top tier for him.
I never felt sorry for Rick because he never wanted me to. He wasn’t a rare kidney condition, he was just one of the guys. And he was my friend. I’ll miss him, the internet will be a worse place without him around.
Rest in peace, my friend.
–Jay Snyder
Viscant@aol.com