Not another Gay thread... version 2.0.5

For real. I’d rather be in a place where everyone knows I’m gay and despises me for it, than ever having to fucking lie about it again. It’s extra annoying to me because everyone assumes I’m straight. I always at least have some pink on (at least my shoes), I dye my hair like a rainbow of colors, including pink and purple right now, the first thing you see in my apartment is a huge gay pride flag, and everyone still assumes I’m straight! It makes me understand why some gay guys act so fruity, because at least you don’t have to answer the awkward you got a girlfriend or check out that hot chick questions/comments. Seriously though, I have pink and purple hair and a fucking rainbow on my wall and you think I have a girlfriend? :confused: WTF is wrong with you people? :lol:

That’s the most epic thing I’ve ever heard.

Please though, feel free to derail it into metal discussion, it’s better than soul calibur 3. :sweat:

X And Mitsu gave birth to all other characters.
Including: Nina, Steve, Storm, O.Sagat, And others.

Edit: Fuck you Mech! lol.

you wanna fight?

you hombres son putos! :wink:

NINJA EDIT: :rofl:

Lets do this fucker!!!

wait not fair you have three dimensions to work with you can sidestep anything i do

Well u have 2-frame half life combos.
Its on Bitch!
And its fucking fair!

All of you negroid homo sapiens are not heterosexually oriented.

Firstly, alot to unload in a first post in this thread, kudos.

Secondly, thanks for sharing, it won’t fall on deaf ears. I’m sure alot of us are listening, me included.

Thirdly, you write/think very clearly and composed, it’s very refreshing to see such in a cesspool of “omgwtflolz” and “no wai, gtfo, lol srsly?”'s. I think we’d totally be able to rap about random stuff.

Fourthly (???), i’ll ask this: how comfortable are you with your sexual orientation and your “sexuality(whats its level of priority in your life)”? You don’t sound very comfortable being associated with a group of people, is this also the case with other things in life like finanicially and socially?

Falling in love with someone can be detached from their sex type. There’s a difference between “coming out” and “falling in love”. I don’t even think anyone would look twice if a mostly exclusively homosexual guy “falls in love” with a female and marries her to have kids and such, “love” in this scenario should be about you see “her<insert her name here>” and “you<your name>” not “girl with a vagoo” and “guy with a penar” and drive your perspective on “Love” based on anatomy. This “love” you’re referring to is the bond between two people, and there’s not much to scrutinize there. So, as they say and cliche as it sounds, follow your heart.

Why do you feel so unhappy coming to terms with how you feel? Is it worth it to risk your mental and emotional health over something as trivial as what the world thinks of your orientation? (i think this is answered in the next post, i’m typing as i read…)

I’m sorry about all of that, it’s infuriating to hear those kinds of upbringings but what’s done is done.

How old are you now? Give me a perspective how far removed you’ve been from your dad’s influence.

You sound very ashamed, which you shouldn’t be. Living away from your dad’s environment should have been relieved some tension, but it depends on how you really feel about bisexuality and homosexuality in general.

Hmm. I can’t comment if your views on sex are influenced somehow by your neurocognitive deficiency, but i’d like to think it doesn’t. So… yeah.

And like what GTC said, we’re just a bunch of guys from all walks of life with different stories and perspectives, and so feel very welcome in our corner of srk.

how is Finland this time of year, btw?

Glad to see this thread going…

Just got back from Mexico last night. It was interesting having my Mom and sister meet Don…it went very well to say the least, and they all got along just fine…even with the language barrier (Don doesn’t speak Spanish, and my Family doesn’t speak English). Went to Belize two days ago (a little country south Mexico). Geeezzz, I’m not going back there any time soon, I won’t go into detail, but I’ll leave it at cockroach shit in their coca colas.

*NOTE

Sorry about my long posts…I kind of like to vent or write about what’s going on and the stories I have. Even if no one reads them it helps me think things through later when I read them. This is kind of an ongoing thing I haven’t written about so it’s kind of long…

/NOTE

I was trying to post last week on my phone and it kept fucking up. The Friday before I left I went to Mexican food with HR coworker and his friend, which we do every Friday. Well, let me backtrack a bit. His friend is one he’s known for 30+ years. His house is about 2 blocks from HR coworker’s but he practically lives here (I say “here” because I spent the night at his place and I’m up typing this on my laptop). Everytime I come over he’s here (hence we always hang out), he does his laundry here, he takes care of the dogs, TiVo’s all his shows and watches them, and spends the night practically every night, on the same bed. Anyways, they’re not in a relationship, and they don’t have sex, they’re just really good friends. Both their families have known each other, like I said, for 30+ years, and HR coworker’s dad, who also lives about 2 blocks away, is best friends with him. THE POINT BEING, they’re really, just as friends, although I still get confused by their relationship, and their like complete opposites of each other which makes it funny.

ANYWAYS, I kind of thought his friend liked me, since he would keep getting friendlier and friendlier with touching and such, and has made comments to me sometimes that made me wonder. Not that I mind this, this man is extremely good looking (sorry, not a chub), and I’ve also had the hots for him for a while. Problem is, he’s HR coworker’s BFF and all. Once a few months back we were sitting in the living room which has L shaped furniture. So HR was laying down on the long part, his friend on the end of the couch, and I had no other place to sit than on the other side of his friend. One of his dogs came up, like he always does, and lay between us. So, I was just petting the dog, and so was his friend…northing special. The next morning, HR asks if I had a good time, I said yeah, then he said “a little close to my friend weren’t you?” I was like what are you talking about? He said, “yeah, you were sitting pretty close to him, what’s going on between you guys?” (this was WAAAAAYYY before he even got friendly with me, or I even liked him that much). I just said ummm, nothing is going on, you were laying on the couch, and I had no where else to sit.

So we always go to this Mexican place on Friday nights, and it’s always the 3 of us. One Friday night, HR wasn’t going to be able to go, so I asked him if his friend was still going, since I was so used to going there Friday nights. He said he’d ask him. Next day I asked him what happened, he said “oh, i’m probably going to be able to make it after all.” I just said, oh ok. Then he said “Geeezzzz, sorry for ruining your plans of being alone with my friend” I just said WTF are you talking about?. He said, “I know you want to spend some time alone with him”. Again, at this point I had never even tried to pass a move on this guy, as I bearly knew him, and didn’t care for him too much at this point, but HR is always been paranoid like that.

So, as time passed, like I said, his friend would be more touchy feely, and the more I got to know him, the more I liked him personality wise and such. And he’s pretty hot, like I mentioned before. We went to dinner the Friday night before I went to Mexico (as HR was supposed to give me a ride to the airport the next morning at 5am). It was more fun than usual, I don’t usually drink since I have to go bowling right after Mexican, but this night I didn’t. We stayed later than usual at the bar (we go to the bar in the restaurant first, then the dinning area). And we all got kind of tipsier than usual. Again he was being touchy once in a while, and I didn’t mind it, and we kind of stared every once in a while into each other’s eyes.

When it was time for dinner, HR paid the bar bill, so me and his friend went to sit down. He’s really into gadgets and such, so I showed him my new Voyager phone. I sat close to him as I showed it to him, and he kind of rubbed his hand against my leg, and I did the same. Finally HR came back and we just sat as normal. We were in a U shaped booth, and I was in the middle, HR on one side and his friend on the other. HR said I could scoot closer to the middle so we weren’t so crowded. I said ok, and his friend said, don’t worry, I can still play with your feet from here. He said this out loud, and I wasn’t sure what he meant, and obviously neither did HR. Then I felt him rubbing his foot against my leg, so I did the same. Then I started rubbing his leg, then thigh, then crotch. And for the most part we were just holding hands. This kind of happened the rest of the night until we left. I’m not sure HR knew what was going, since he was pretty tipsy, and 5 minutes after we ordered he couldn’t even remember ordering anything, he kind of drew a blank for the rest of our time there.

When we drove back home, HR was driving (he always drives) his friend was on the passenger side, and I was on the back passenger side, which is always the sitting arrangement. So I put my hand forward on the right side through to the passenger seat, and we held hands until we got home. Once we got there we sat on the couch, in the same position like that one night the dog jumped between us. Once again the dog did jump between us and we both petted it, and then our hands touched and we just held them. He eventually had his hand on the back of my shirt, and I put mine under his shirt on his hairy stomach, rubbing it. We would go back to holding hands then when HR walked away for a bit I felt his dick and it was hard, then he felt mine too. I leaned in and kissed him quickly. So HR was sitting next to us the whole time, and he saw everything that was going on, but it was obvious that neither of us cared. Eventually he fell asleep and HR was falling asleep too (as they always do when we watch TV). They went to their own room, and I went to the one I was staying.

Next morning HR woke me up to get ready. He asked if I wanted to shower and I said yeah, so he gave me a towel and soap. Then before he walked away he leaned in and hugged me, then kissed me. (If you recall, me and HR play around)…When we were driving to the airport he called me a drunken whore kind of jokingly, then he said he couldn’t believe I kicked him to the curb for his friend…again, jokingly. I said what are you talking about, all I did was feel him up. He’s like I can’t believe you’re in love with him and want to marry him. I just said, well, will you come to the wedding? He just smiled. Then I asked him if he would hate me if I slept with him, and he said, I don’t know, I think it would be a weird situation. I asked, for who? He said for you, since you come here all the time and he’s here all the time. I said ummm, I sleep with you, and I’m here all the time, and there’s nothing weird there. He just smiled knowing I had touche’d him.

See, before HR and I ever did anything with each other, we had a conversation. It involved us being co workers and being more than friendly with each other. He was afraid that I would fall in love with him (it’s somehow always me that’s going to fall in love with people, they never say they might fall in love with me…which is usually what happens :P). I told him that I had lots of friends I was friendly with and never fell in love with him. I have a partner, and he’s the only one I love. He said he would love to be friends and do all the things we do, go to the movies and such, maybe play around, and be just friends. I told him the same thing. So, in my head I figured we were just friends and nothing else.

When I was in Mexico we talked almost everyday, and he would bring the subject up, but eventually it died down. They both picked me up at the airport yesterday, and we sat and watched TV when we got home. I was again sitting next to his friend, and HR kept looking over, but I did nothing with his friend, and I was too tired from my flights anyways. I went to bed then woke up and came on here and started typing this. I heard them wake up about 10 minutes ago, so I’m heading over there right now. Last night his friend also kept looking at me weird and put his hand near me, but I didn’t reciprocate, I really do like him, and would love to get friendly with him, just don’t know what’s gonna happen.

I should really write all my stories for nifty.org :sweat: sorry they go on for so long. But I like having a place to vent and write these things, even if they don’t get read.

…WHAT? You mean Henri Sorvali, right? Part of the reason I got into Moonsorrow is because I have this raging mancrush on him. He’s so fucking cute, and obscenely talented too.

It’s a shame he doesn’t travel with them when they tour in the US. I wouldn’t mind flying over there to see them at all, but that’s so much money. :sad:

Well at least this time the derail is kind of still on topic. <3

But good story.

first of all EWW about roach shit in your soda.

Second of all… do you ever get the feeling this is just so much work for something so casual. That’s kinda why i left things alone with my daddybear boss. I figure he knows how i feel about him and If he wants it he knows how to find me. but it’s too much work for just a casual fling.

But I feel you on friends assuming you are hot for someone that they know is hot for you.

I’m kinda going through that shit now… and it happened to me before.

One time I got some angry ass message about me being a homewrecker because some guy caught his bf jerking off to an old video i did. i was like :confused::confused: how is this my fault I didn’t even know them.

One of angel’s friends has the hots for me and apparently he’s very vocal about it. even to the point that his crush on me was the reason for the breakup of his last relationship. and his current boyfriend is all pissed off that everytime he sees angel he goes on to this tirade about me.

Mind you I’ve never EVER EVER EVER made a move on this guy… never showed any intrest, we don’t even really talk I’m actually pretty rude to the guy all things considered but last friday he was apparently raving about me at some bar to my friends that were out that night …I wasn’t even there… i was home sleeping cause I was sick. at least i don’t have people getting in my ass assuming that i want any part of that though. PM me if you wanna see pics of the guy in question. he’s not realy a bear kindof a peirced tatooed skinhead.

I over-analyze myself and my actions. I’m twenty one. I fall in love with individuals over their gender, I guess. I don’t wanna make a fuzz about it, but if I were to get into a relationship with a guy, I wouldn’t want to hide it. I don’t know how to handle it, that’s why I posted.

Finland this time of the year is dark. Snowless christmas, snowless new year. Snow will probably fall in a few weeks. Wet, cold and dark 'til then.

Soul Calibur 3: Mitsu 88B VC is probably the most evil thing in SC3. And 236B with ze sisters. X’s whoring is fixed in PAL version. I play Sieg (zomg<3) and Night.

Yes, Henri Sorvali. Funny guy, him. I always hated his bullring, though. He kept calling us “arselings” when we were too hungover to play properly. Said that he’d go have a beer and when he’d come back we better be able to play or he’d drop us off his course.

I’ve not slept this year. I came straight to work from my friend’s place. I’m still a little drunk. Zzz. Need more coffee.

Man that must be something.

[fanboy]God he’s so damn hot.[/fanboy]

What about Yoshi’s throw VC juggles? Those were pretty dumb too.

ya’ll don’t get the point though, that ring is just stupid looking…fuggen half stage length and shit…

But X is still my 2nd queen

Yoshi’s pretty bad.
Anything back turned is pretty bad too.

The Ex called, dont know wats going down tonight.

I don’t think it’s just a casual fling with him…I mean, we’re friends, good friends, and I share with him a lot more than anyone else. He’s my co-worker, as of now one of my best friends, we have a ton in common, and we’re comfortable with each other enough that we can have sex and still be just friends. It’s never been work to have this friendship with him…it feels so good to have a friend like that.

After I posted the last message, I got up and went to the living room and sat with my boxer briefs and a shirt on, and went on my PC and surfed the web. (especially for a new camera cause I lost mine in belize :sad:). Both of them were up and about and it was just casual. I showed HR some pics on my PC from my trip, then we all went out for breakfast.

I’ll try to cut this short…

His friend left to take care of some business, and the previous week HR had told he was taking care of his grandma new years eve, who’s 89, since she usually has his brother look over her but he was away to Canada He asked me what I was doing, and I told him I didn’t have plans, but that I would hang out with him if he didn’t mind the company. He said he didn’t mind, that we could watch movies and such, but anytime I wanted I could back out because he knew it might be a boring night and didn’t want to force me to go. I knew it could be boring, but I always have a good time with him even when we just sit around doing nothing, so I didn’t mind.

So we ended up going to the supermarket and buying a bunch of snack foods, dinner and vodka for the night, and we brought some movies to watch, along with 3 seasons worth of Golden Girls (I have never seen an episode…that changed after that night). So we got to the house, and I guess his grandma used to be on TV and was famous or something he said, and she lived up in the hollywood hills, which is where m(b)illionaires live, and you could over see all of LA from up in the moutains. I had no idea where she lived, and it turned out to be a huge house with an awesome view of the whole valley. We had a good time, his grandma was nice, she’s pretty old and is on a wheel chair and uses a walker, but she was still a fun person.

We watched movies until his Grandma was tired and wanted to go to bed. Afterwards we had some of the hottest sex I have ever had with him, and it was the most passionate it’s ever been with him. We ended 5 minutes before midnight, which gaves us enough time to go to the view and see the fireworks. We slept in the same bed, as no one else lived there, and we were upstairs anyways, which his grandma couldn’t up to (we kept it quite anyways). Next morning the awesome sex continued, we had breakfast and once the caretaker for that day came to check on his grandma, we left. We got to his place, showered and such, went for breakfast. Spent about 2 more hours of awesome sex, although most of it involved kissing and staring into each other’s eyes and caressing (which I LOVE), went to a movie, then got back to his place and left. And now I’m here.

It’s hard to explain in the story, but the last couple of days with him were different that they’ve been before. Maybe it’s because I was flirting with his friend and he got maybe jealous (even though he says we’re just friends…). Maybe because it was outside of work, and he’d had a view days off and was just relaxed. The sex was also a lot different than it had been before. We were also together 2 weeks ago at Disneyland the whole day, which was an awesome time.

Whether or not the reason it was like this was because of flirting with his friend and getting jealous, I am now not really in the mood to get with his friend any longer. Maybe that was his plan all along, I don’t know, but that’s how I feel now. Maybe I was being kind of a jerk for flirting with his friend and wanting to get with him (although the feeling is obviously mutual with his friend…).

Have to work at 6am tomorrow…early shift = t3h sux.

Alright, thanks for shedding some light about your situation. It is tough to go through the motions of coming to terms with aspects of yourself, but life doesn’t have to be overly complicated and stressful. Be honest and accepting how you really feel and look at the positive things to come out of it, less on the tiny negative points. It sounds like you don’t want to get hurt again and hurt the feelings of the other person, but worrying about it won’t make the stress go away. Look at a new relationship as a chance to change what didn’t work before, and basically “move forward.” I learned to laugh about alot of things and not let them get to me like they use to. This has worked for me, it may not work for you, but it’s worth a shot.

I dunno much about Finland, how’s the fighting competition scene there?

and i guess no one asked you yet, but what kind of man are you attracted to (if any specifics at all)? I wanna see if you continue the trend with the rest of us…

Hey Mech, I had several shots of vodka and tequila! Wanted to get drunk, but couldn’t (had to handle drama/bullshit with friends and supposed “friends”) But now I know I can get drunk! Mixing was meh, but chasing was much better for me. I probably could get used to not chasing Vodka, but it will be a while before I don’t chase tequila. Everything else tasted like crap (champagne, wine, rum, etc.)

Lol. So i jus remembered that i tried getting into Bear411 a while back and i didnt get a reply email. So, i tried it again a couple days ago and still nothing. WTF!??!?!

Ugh yes! Finally got laid after like…a while.
I wanna play games now.
But no one’s around.
:frowning:

bear411 is iffy atm (cannot find server) so maybe that might be why?

still have not had like SEX sex in a long as time…a little oral, but that’s it