yep. yep. Been seeking counseling for years now, but Iāve run into nothing but jackasses along the way.
Healthgrades and yelp are your friends in vetting
The hardest part is trust
Most Buddhist monks and catholic priests have master degrees in psychology and can act as counsel for free
You find a lot less judgement from catholics than you assume
Therapist are fuckin expensive. When I lost my insurance I tried to work something out with mine so I could continue to see her. Once a month for 50 bucks was the best she could. Once a month is not enough and I told her that. I thanked her and told her that she was a great therapist and I hope one day to see her again. She said she hopes I donāt need to see her again. We both laughed and hugged. I havenāt seen her since.
edit - yes its kinda tough. I told this woman the most intimate details of my life. Shit that would scare most of you. And now shes gone. I miss her.
Well you arenāt dead (yet)
Maybe you should sleep with a rubber spatula instead of a knife
Nobody is going to murder you except maybe yourself
So I found myself waking up in the hospital today because I apparently collapsed at work out of nowhere. The doctor came in my room a little bit after I woke up telling me that I was suffering from something called ketoacidoses (sp?) and that Iām in danger of having my legs cut off because my blood levels are literally off the scales. This shit is crazy because I didnāt know that I even had diabetes before this. Is anyone here diabetic or have any experience with diabetics that can help me out because I have no idea what to do and I am legit scared as shit right now.
First off stop eating so shitty
Secondly get blood work done
Get medications
Diet and exercise along with meds is the cure. I am proof of that.
Going undiagnosed tells me a couple things.
- You donāt go to the doctor
- You possibly eat shitty
- You are morbidly obese
- You just arenāt aware
@āDangerous Jā can help with some baseline diagnosis
But, if you are going to get your legs cut. I wonder how swollen and miscolored they are
2 and 4 mostly. Iāve cut down a lot of weight but i still have a ways to go.
Also thats the crazy part. My legs arenāt swollen or discolored at all. I just have some excess fat from the weight loss. If anything they look too skinny.
Boogerā¦I know you dont like me because of what I said in the past. Let it go. Stop posting in this thread dude. Your advice is not sound and youāre only in here to start problemsā¦most likely with me. Please stop. You want to talk some shit lets take it to gd and see who gets banned firstā¦if thats what you want. Im sick of your fucking bullshit most of the time but in this threadā¦its not cool, dude. Kick rocks. No harm. Just go.
Um, there isnāt any wrong with what dude is saying lol. Shit he is even asking someone with a medical background to help you out. Stop being a punk.
I think your an asshole analpalmā¦heās a dick. there is a difference.
edit - he comes wrong. Not with that feeling of āIm trying to helpā. He comes with that āIma fuck with youā kinda help. That nigga needs to go fuck himself.
How is he fucking with you? Like explain your thought process cause this could give us some more insightā¦
Honestly I think that liquor got you producing too much estrogen cause you acting like a bitch right now.
Angelpalm is saying youāre paranoid its not not as bad as it seems. Youāre misreading his messageā¦
I know there have been a few posts since this but I just want to go back to it.
Youāre not dead yet, what that tells me is that you want to live. That tells me that youāve already made a choice even if you donāt realise it. Now there are two ways of going about things, there are constructive ones, and destructive ones. Destructive thoughts and attitudes donāt build anything, they just tear shit down, you need to think constructively if youāre going to find the motivation you need to fix things. At the end of the day no matter what people say to you, youāre the only one that can make the changes. I know itās hard, but it is that simple, simple doesnāt mean easy but if youāre going to hang around youāve just gotta do it. Itās like when the place is a mess, you can put off cleaning it but in the end itās just going to take you longer and cost more than if you just stay on top of it. Right now youāre in that expensive stage as youāve let shit get out of control but once you start clearing a path through the mess youāre going to find it easier to maintain it man, you just need to start by cutting out the things that are destructive in your life like the drinking and finding some constructive, positive outlets like hobbies. Hell man, get a puppy and take it for walks, thereās a lot you can do.
Iām speaking from experience here as well man. As little as a few years ago I was as depressed as can be. A lot of those posts probably arenāt still around as they were on the old version of the forum but believe me, they were there and I burnt bridges in other communities with my own destructive behaviour as I felt it was too hard to help myself so I was always looking to others to do it for me. In the end though I got my shit together by doing the kind of stuff Iāve said to you. Since then Iām earning more at work, Iāve managed to travel more and recently I got engaged to the girl Iāve been seeing the last eighteen months. Lifeās as good as I can ever remember it being. It took me a long while to get on the right path but by doing the kind of shit Iāve said and approaching things in that manner Iāve done it.
This is something that took me a long time to learn and incorporate into my day to day. Only through months of therapy could i get myself to focus more on positive moments during my days and less on the negative. I personally tend to spiral in 1 direction or the other with my emotions, if iām taking the time to tell friends/family or whoever about just the negatives in my day my entire outlook on life gets gradually more negative, on the flipside if i take the few moments out of my day to share even tiny positive interactions or victories i start to find it easier to find more of those positives out of my days and also easier to let the bad things go.
Itās almost the strangest thing but in a lot of ways, despite being in a very difficult time in my life, iām happier than i have been in a long time. Moved into a new place (friends of my parents) which is much cleaner than the apartment i was living at, got my contracting hours up for billable hours for the month and i donāt feel like iām completely drowning, and while grieving me and my roommatesā (the one that passed more recently) gf got really close and started to dateā¦ for better or for worse we are just going for it.
stay strong, stay positive and good things can happen
as someone who didnāt get diagnosed with kidney failure till my kidneys were down to a pathetic 20% function (and because my BP got taken for my medical weed card) i would also add that lots of people were just raised to walk it off so to speak. Here i was gaining weight despite eating well and excersizing and just ASSUMING i wasnāt doing enough and that i was more out of shape than i thought etcā¦ i was stubborn as hell.
Now i strongly suggest to everyone i know and care about to get a blood test or doc visit in at least once every 6 months even if you feel 100% healthy, or if you tell yourself your 100% healthy
Ok, so maybe iām being an asshole because of the past things with Booger (and the fact that I just kinda dislike him, dunno why either). I apologize.
I woke up feeling good today. Like everything was right. Left my room and that all went crashing down. I fuckinā hate where I live. But, its either this or my broken car.
Just make the best of it man, if something bothers you that is fixable, fix it, it will do you more harm leaving it. If your place is really a mess and itās part of why you feel down just move some stuff about, clean things, arrange stuff, turf stuff that never gets used and probably never will get used. You have control over your life man even when it sometimes feels like you donāt.
You could not imagine the disarray this house was in before I came here. 6 months hard labor to clean it up somewhat. Everyone here does their best to trash the place. I mean, dude, my roommate said āhow do you keep a kitchen clean every dayā. WTF? Clean that shit you lazy motherfucker jerk off.
You sound very manic
Get diagnosed bitch