I need help…think ima stick myself in the mental hospital. Ime fucked.
Ah i see. Depression is for sure different for everyone. I guess i should be thankful that my only real spell lasted 2 months, and thankfully i havent experienced it again although im prepared to do so shall the demons decide to take over.
@drizzt i hope for the best man, i know saying meaningless shit like “stay positive” is futile but thats all we can really do.
It’s not meaningless when people say to stay positive. As someone that has overcome depression I used to use the whole, “it’s not that simple,” spiel to justify the way I felt all the time but I came to a realisation that it actually is that simple. Just hear me out. Simple doesn’t mean easy. Chess is a simple enough game to learn but that doesn’t mean it’s easy to beat a grandmaster. The key really is just thinking positive, it’s just hard. Whenever you think negative thoughts you just need to find a way to shut them down. When you think positive thoughts instead of shutting them down with negative ones just let them spin around a bit, embrace it a little. Over time it works. There’s nothing wrong with feeling sad, you need some balance as you don’t want to be totally full of yourself and inconsiderate of others but thinking positive and just telling yourself positive things really is a good way to get better. Maybe the only way. That doesn’t mean it’s easy.
I found a comment I wrote in the comment box on this thread that was saved from over a year ago but I didn’t post it. It was nutritional advice on what to take if you suffer from severe depression. I might not be useful now so I’ll delete it.
I don’t know where most of you live but the problems I’ve faced that have caused depression would have been dealt with almost instantly if I lived in America.
I’m Australian and I think you’ll find depression is pretty universal.
Post it anyway. You never know, it might be of use to somebody.
I wish it would just stop like some of you guys. It never goes away…Im a mess. sorry
edit - I do things like drink to make it stop. Its just makes it worse, but I dont learn.
just a few days to feel like everything is right…but its not
edit 2 - im sure you all have read about how I like to carry and sleep with a weapon. When I get drunk…I start challenging everyone to fights. Not to show how badass I am…Im hoping that that person will kill me. Not fist fights…
Yes…im branded 5150. according to the law im a walking, talking, mental nightmare.
Hrm…trying to fight depression, by drinking a substance that causes depression…yeah I tried that and it didn’t work.
It’s hard with low willpower but it gets easier over time. Just keep trying and don’t be too hard on yourself when it’s not working. Stick with it even if it feels pointless. It’s like digging a tunnel. You never think you’ll get to the other side but then you see daylight, you just gotta keep digging in the right direction
Make jokes all u want but sometimes that temporary fix is all you need. Of course it makes things worse in the long run but sometimes you don’t even think about it. You just want something to feel better for the moment. That’s exactly why i have a love hate relationship with weed. It helps me to just let go of all the bullshit and just enjoy my life but the next morning everything comes right back. Am I saying that what I do is right? Hell no but sometimes that’s all you need to get out of your head even if it’s only for a short while.
Naw man that shit is poison man. When you are down like that you gotta really look at what you are putting into your body these days because all that has a real tangible effect on you. Whether it’s liquor or fucking fast food. Just that shit right there will dampen your spirits. Fucking pill makers got people trying to solve the wrong puzzles in the first place wondering why they want to blow their brains out in shit.
I know I’m full of analogies but speaking from personal experience you might want to listen to this one. Drinking is a bandaid but just because you can’t see the blood doesn’t mean you’re not still bleeding. That sort of shit needs stitches, it wont just fix itself because you get drunk. By drinking you’re just delaying the inevitable that you’re going to need to confront it, the problem is though that just because you’re drunk doesn’t mean it’s not still on your mind. I can’t count the amount of ridiculous, stupid, regrettable shit I’ve done drinking while depressed. I have countless stories of bad experiences with work, girls and more because I’ve decided to get pissed when I haven’t been in the state of mind to handle it. It’s also crazy the amount of people that commit suicide while drunk as drinking lowers your inhibitions which are sometimes all that’s keeping someone super depressed from blowing their brains out. The point of all this is don’t drink to solve your problems. If it’s too much to handle lose yourself in a few albums with some headphones on in the dark or run until you can’t think about anything except pushing your body to keep running. Play video games. You can’t distract yourself forever but if you’re really in that much of a pinch that you need to shut it off, do something other than get drunk, believe me, it’s not the answer and this is coming from someone that loves a good drink.
I say this you probably will use weed and alcohol as means until you get stuff like cocaine or heroin
What should you do?
I don’t know spend time with your kids
Get into a drug rehab program and dry out so you can think clearly
I refuse to take sny pills whatsoever to treat anything unless i get hit with something like cancer in the future
Booger may think this is funny but its not. He’s similar to my mom. He cant or he just refuses to believe that people like me actually exist.
I know drinking just makes it worse in the end. I do it just for what nikeSBstunna89 said. Just that short time of feeling like its ok. Just like him, the next morning things feel even worse. So, do I drink more or just try to deal with? Depends on if I have money.
I honestly think that my mom refuses to believe that I suffer mental issues because she takes it as a sign that she was a bad parent. Thats far from true. Did she play a part in how I am today? Sure. Her, my bio mom, her girlfriends, me…we all had a part in it.
Edit - I will never even try hard drugs like cocaine and heroin. My bio mom was a heroin junky. My dad was her john. Everyone says she didn’t use when she was pregnant with me. I don’t think that’s true.
DaBoog is just a troll man. You need thick skin in life, just start by tuning out guys like him online
I do normally just ignore Booger. But he really doesnt need to come troll a thread like this. Its not fun or funny.
So I’ve been at a low point these past few days with my dating attempts and me feeling my depression is driving my friends away (it hasn’t, but the constant complaining has to stop and I’m making an effort to be more compassionate with myself and more grateful for the relationships I have while truly embracing my singledom and figuring why I’m so needy for intimacy when I know I don’t need a relationship to be happy).
Today, a friend of mine learned her ex had finally moved on (they’re roommates on campus and she witnessed them buying her condoms) and was quite at a low point about it. Her and her ex did end things up on good terms and the latter really looks out for her, so they have a good relationship. However, my friend was still hurt about it but is trying to move on, and us talking about our past experiences with love, rejection, heartbreak and unrequited love was very nice. Not just because I had someone to talk to, but because I was actually helping and hearing someone out for once and not ranting about myself. It felt good giving someone my time and lending them an ear and not being stuck on myself.
Last night, I reached out to a friend who tonight arranged a sparring practice specificially for me - to fight six people in a row for 30 seconds each, two rounds. Though I personally wasn’t impressed with myself, everyone cheered me on and expressed how impressed they were. My friend told me that being a purple belt, my sparring capabilities were at the levels of a white to yellow belt (I will say it’s due to my hiatus and frustrations with my abilities and thus “quitting” sparring"), but that it was okay because him being a black belt, his coach considered him his sparring abilities to be of the green to blue levels. Adding to that, he said while he wasn’t impressed during 1v1 matches, he was impressed by the “guts” I displayed when taking on six people. Tonight actually made me feel very good about myself and as if I’m capable of becoming something.
Very few people I will suggest stop drinking. But in your case, you may want to. Of course it will suck, and you’ll have to deal with the issues at hand, but drinking never EVER helps that situation. Drinking is to unwind, or take your mind off something for a brief time. Not for daily doses of dealing with shit.
Find a new hobby. Lift weights, get into photography, learn a new game. Just do something that takes your mind off what causes problems, while also preventing you from drinking.
How am i trolling? That is why alcohol and weed are bad. The buzz wears off and you go to harder drugs.
If you are so afraid for your safety go check into any hospital and say you are going to kill yourself
Staying online clamoring for attention nets you nothing.
If you really care for your kids you get yourself in a hospital asap
Otherwise go ahead and continue to just bitch and whine and talk about how hard you are when nobody cares
Find help, because despite what you may think kids need their dad
This might be hard to accept, but most everybody has mental health problems. I see a therapists for my issues. You seem to have chemical dependency issues based on your post history.
But shit ask your friend or even your friend’s mom to take you to the hospital
You are hurting your family more than you know
Suck some dicks to pay the hospital bill if you have to