That sounds about right…
I have learned a whole lot this weekend. How I felt towards everything I have done, seen and learned. I don’t know if I can be as good as I was a year ago seeing that I didn’t do as good or as well as I hoped I would. Good job to everyone for doing better than me in every game you guys have entered. In ST seeing Chris and Rob was only 1 game away from making 32. Rob winning 2 games in CvS2 before being taken out. JC winning 3 games before being taken out in XX, Chris making it in 32 (nice one man, go go Potemkin I guess) and for JC OCVing 1 guy on the bigscreen too :eek: . The experience was great as always, but this year left a bad taste in my mouth. Can I recover from it, I don’t know. I’m just gonna have to wait and see.
Oh if you guys ever see me play XX again, it might be without Baiken. I dropped her like a bad habit seeing that I play her hella slow. Johnny looks good, but as well, steering away from a character that only rely’s on one move too (throw anyone???). Sol has to be played with wakeup/random/run up Volcanic Vipers or play like Daigo mentality (like what Nick says “easy 80% combo”). Ky,…no comment. Dizzy looks good, but I don’t know as well. Milia has to be played fast and if I can’t play Baiken fast, I have no chance of being good with her as well. Venom, go go pool balls, but no way in hell I’ll play him. Eddie, hmm, shadow shadow shadow. It’s all about that, and as usual, he’s top tier. Learning how to control him is a different story. Jam’s very annoying and from what I saw in Evo, she has a hard time with Eddie. Potemkin,…no comment. Zappa, crazy crazy crazy but has to win with getting Raoh as quick as possible. Slayer, gotta do the backdash cancel very well to win with him. Bridget is annoying, and as usual, I won’t play him. Anji, takes too much damage. Testa, rely’s on the web 50/50 game (again one move). Faust,…
. Chipp, might be the sole character I don’t hate or I don’t have a beef with. Problem is, he rely’s also on low dust gamma blade technique. Again, none of that. So that leaves me with who? Axl? Nah, he’s too complex for me… Should I still play the game, absolutely. But should I compete, I don’t know. I’ll leave it up to how I feel from here til whenever.
CvS2. I have decided, K-groove is my groove. My characters, Blanka, Sagat, R2 Blanka, arcade glitch that sucka!!! To be honest, I don’t know anymore. If the person turtles againts me, I just lose it. But team is Blanka, prolly Yama (not sure)/Cammy/Vega/Rolento/Honda/Kyo, and R2 Sagat. Having to lose to someone who turtled on me and just did RC everytime I rolled/jumped in was stupid enough for me to drop it and I gave up after that, and decided to just play my stupidest team (a-groove Beni,Eagle/R2 Ken) and got double elim in a game that I stupidly didn’t practiced on (shame on me). I may still play this game, but like I said I don’t even know anymore.
I lost faith in myself in this tourney. It dawned to me that I may not be as good as I think I am. Or may not be good at all. That I am full of crap that can’t even put it up when it counts. Rob asked me if I played my heart out. If I tell you guys that I did, would it make it any better. No. It just shows me that even if I played my best I still can’t do it. It sucks. I know, and it just didn’t feel good. 1 of the reasons why I left when I was recording yesterday was due to this feeling. Even though I wanted to see how it was played by myself, I just have this empty feeling looking at it. As if I don’t even care anymore. This maybe a sign that I should say I’m done. 3 years in the scene and not even the top players know me. 3 years that I played and not even once have I proven myself that I’ll do better. 3 years…I didn’t do it. I have let myself down every year. I have let Robin down the last 3 years. To this day, I’m hearing what he said to me 3 years ago. “You gotta learn how to throw first before you learn any other game.” Maybe he’s right, maybe I should’ve stuck with CvS2 before playing GGXX. Maybe I should’ve learned ST before I learned CvS2. Maybe, just maybe if I just dropped everything I did and just played these games, I maybe as good like Daigo, Ricky, Choi, Nelson, Cole. But I won’t. And I can’t. Cause I’m not good enough. Rob, I told you this Saturday, when we were walking back to the room. And you said, I now sound like JC or Paul, that I give up easily. I didn’t give up easily, 3 years may look easy for you, but not to me. This isn’t the first year I didn’t do better than you have expected me to. And I’m sorry. I guess I’m not good enough. Anyway, I just wanted to say how I felt yesterday. On the fly back I was already thinking of this. Am I retiring? Should I even say that? I didn’t even prove anything in this scene to say that. Am I quitting? I don’t know for sure, I just wanted to highlight that so that the rest of the crew may want to read it. Am I gonna stop?..
FUCK NO…
I’m bored motherfuckers. Don’t believe everyword that’s up there. I will beat ya’ll in anygame this weekend. Bastards, put up $1.00 per game in 10 games mofo’s and i’ll be there :). HAHA this weekend, $1.00 tourney fuck ya i’m up for it so I can take all ya’ll monies and shit :p. See ya’ll this weekend SUCKAS!!!
JP out and will take all of reno crew’s money cause he’s the shit like that HAHAHHA.:lol: :lol:
) and for Andrei to lose to me in SC2 is just out right nuts :eek: . Anyway, over all was a great tourney, and thanks for everyone that showed up :).
I remember this one time I mashed out of gamma blade and got this fluke low to the ground cross up HS, it was so random I had no intentions of that at all, Chip vs. Potemkin is like David vs. Goliath x100 rocks upside his head to kill him :lol: but you still beat me and had me worried because you were mixing it up like crazy.