Before I start, this isn’t a pity thread but a realization of things. I have come to the realization after playing fighting games for many years that I’m “free.” No matter how long I practice with my characters, study matchups, look at frame data, play against different people, I can never seem to progress. I have friends and acquaintances who have made it (one of them being the amazing RyRy) who make it look so easy that it’s hard to not be in awe of the things you do.
How I came to the realization that I am basically a scrub, was a few months ago at a tournament in Virginia Beach, VA. I had came with the hope that after playing SFIV and taking my skills from SF in general and becoming better in SSFIV, that I would make a better impact on the people who knew me. Low and behold, amazing guys such as Foomyjin and RyRy showed up along with some SOVA well-knowns. I was nervous but I kept my lunch down only to get ran on in my first round. Only thing left from the scene was the Pringles man in the background. Picking myself up for the losers bracket, I managed to get ran on for the first round and halfway through the 2nd round I literally quit and sat there with my stick in my lap. I was overwhelmed. Everyone stared at me and my opponent (Foomyjin) told me to keep playing but I was broken. I realized at that point I was “free.”
It brought me back to a warm summer night years back when I went to a hotel party where more of SOVA and NOVA players gathered in a few rooms to play fighting games. I was just a younger version of me with even less experience and confidence and I got ran on in every game I could think of: T5, SSBB, SFA3, MvC2, etc. While I had fun, while playing SSBB, O-NO (a SOVA player) came out and told me words I still remember: “You suck at every game that you’ve played tonight. Why are you even here? You are a scrub.” While I’m still friends with him today, I can’t be mad at words that were true and still are which brings me to this thread.
At this point, I’m sure most of you are thinking, “This guy is a scrub because he doesn’t practice enough and just wants attention.” Not at all. I want people to realize that there are people who want to get better but no amount of help can well… help them. Also, this was more of something I wanted to get off of my chest since I respect the words of Shoryuken over anyone else when it comes to fighting games. All I have is one question as to what I can do about my future: How do I build the confidence to not let past failures keep me from progressing my skill? I don’t want to be salty, pringles, or “free” anymore. Even if I don’t become so good I go to EVO and get even in the Top 100, I want to be able to fight someone and the person go, “Damn. That guy gave me a great match.” That’s all.