Dude, you don’t need to go off on me over random AE stuff I never said, and that people thought was implied. Like, while I get saying it might imply the scene is unhealthy, lacking players, and that I have some magic fix, I don’t really think that at all. I mean, I’ve been going to stuff since that GO stuff that was around in like 2010-2011 when the original guy (Buenob) had it up, and I’ve been to the old HQ a number of times and even brought my setup multiple times to the Gonq get-togethers. I’m sorry if the things I’ve said have been coming across as something far different from what I’m trying to convey. Like, to me, I’m on YOUR side, I’m on Johnny’s side, Bruce’s side, Miles’ side, and the side of everyone else that helps put stuff together to give people a means to get together and play, and I WANT those people and everyone here to succeed.
Does the fact that I’m occasionally a blunt smartass with a dry sense of humour happen to be something that is out of place and not best suited for sometimes getting my point across? Of course, but I still very much want Ottawa to succeed and would love to see it grow in size or even double or triple in terms of the people coming out. That isn’t me trying to take away from the people who put in work, to get it to as good as it is now, it’s just me being optimistic at what could be accomplished. I’m not your enemy man, or anybody’s here, though I do have the ability to say “hey there” and have it be taken as “fuck off”, apparently, be it intentional or not.
I don’t pretend to be ego-driven or like I’m better than people around here at anything other than CP since there are plenty of people who will always be better at AE, since it’s better suited to them, and Marvel since they’re more familiar. Hell, even with TTT2 and P4A, I’m not blind about just being “decent” and having a ways to go before I could get close to becoming good. While I should probably feel embarrassed stating my mind on stuff, I don’t really because I know it’s well-intentioned. Also, while getting blown up by Brice from Montreal at the last tournament I went to was a bit humbling in that it happened to go down on stream, the entire tournament was another learning experience and I feel that if I walk away from a tournament with even just 1 piece of knowledge that I didn’t have going in, then it’s a worthwhile experience.
Yeah, this is rambly, but I’m just going to end this by saying I never intended to come across as attacking, defensive, condescending, self-righteous, like someone seeking to harm the community, or anything else that fits in there, and the only other thing I can do on it is apologize if anybody got legitimately offended and say that I’ll watch how I word things from now on.