Pussy is my anti-drug.
Also pretty much what @Neesa said.
And I can relate to the panic attacks. Mine are fewer and further between now, but I did have one last week that lasted 2 hours, almost broke me. It had been a long while before that since I had one, so that’s a step in the right direction.
I just kept reminding myself that it would pass. That’s what I gotta do. Where I’m at, even if I could get help, mental healthcare is lackluster at best, and it’s really hard to find antidepressants over here.
Another thing is not to self-medicate. That only compounds the problem. I don’t know if you’ve thought about it, but just don’t. There have been times where I have thought of trying to find an ounce of weed over here because at least that would have a calming effect in my life, but really, deep down, I don’t see that as a real solution, but more of a numbing.
And like Neesa said, suicide is a like setting your house on fire when you find a spider in the closet. I don’t see that being helpful for any situation.
Happens to one in 6 of us they reckon. Its hard to measure since it goes undiagnosed in so many people.
Runs in our family and medication has had negative effects, leading as far a suicide and suicidal thoughts in some.
I’ve mentioned my own depression and suicidal thoughts on here before, but a book called ‘Hagakure’ really helped me out. A spiritual guide originally written for samurai that explains that finding yourself in a position where death is something that can be achieved at whim, is actually really liberating and can allow you to live a more selfless, unburdoned life than most.
I’d advise talking to someone, one to one. Spoke to my first counsellor in high school and most recently this summer. Not a regular thing, but speaking to someone and coming up with coping strategies with someone is a good place to start. If formal counselling feels like too much, a cup of coffee with someone you trust and respect is just as good.
Like missing person says, finding positive things about yourself or finding a feeling of self worth is a big part of it.
Find something you can do that you can be proud of. You’re probably getting bored of stuff easily because there’s no anticipation of a real achievement in there for you. Find a more technical game that you’d like to learn, build your first fightstick/cabinet, burn 10 lbs, there’s a bunch of things you can do that can get you past the black dog, or, at the very least, take your mind off it.
Remember that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem and that a life not lived results in a death not earned.
Just from a professional perspective really. What medications are you taking? What kind of activity are you taking part in? What is your diet like?
Everbody thinks of shutting off one time or another. Are you unhappy with your life or are you uncomfortable in your skin?
Pills will not fix you long term, doctors will just give you drugs and that is it.
Are you feeling lethargic/unmotivated. Take part in a physical activity that challenges you physically and mentally. Like boxing, martial arts, yoga, Crossfit. Anything.
Talk to a therapist. Go find a group counseling thing. Ymca’s, rec centers, city websites, and churches offer groups to express your concerns.
A lot of the problems people have is their inability to express themselves in their own lives. Talking about things with people even if they aren’t listening somebody is.
Drugs work sure, but it’s more of a struggle within.
Good luck.
Go to a church and talk to the rabbi, monk, reverend, or priest. It’s free, at the most real they will listen and give you a calming presence. Especially the least judgey is catholic priest.
Going to the gym for me is theraputic. Lifting is a great thing. Cardio is great.
If you are going to the gym to push yourself at first cool. I would get a trainer who will push you.
For a long time i was always thinking bad horrible thoughts.
The gym, grappling, muay thai, yoga, and meditation helped me.
Putting your fate in a stranger’s hands puts everything in perspective
that’s too bad about the university stuff. try your best to keep productive in the meantime until you start school again. video games are cool but they won’t bring the same satisfaction as learning a new language or achieving fitness milestones. friends come and go unfortunately, that’s just the way of things. find a job or volunteer, it will help you meet new people.
take the time to understand why you are depressed in the first place. how much of those problems are ongoing? how many of those problems took place in the past? are you worried about the future? you may be surprised with how much power you actually have to change things. until you start taking the steps needed for improvement you’ll always have those problems weighing you down and affecting your day-to-day, even when you’re not consciously thinking about them, that’s depression. the medication can alleviate this symptom but your problems will persist until you deal with them.
I manage a non-clinical community based mental health service. There’s a few things I would like to share with you and hopefully something I say might be helpful. While there might be some biological factors to consider, if you are depressed you have almost certainly thought yourself into your predicament. Low mood is one thing but depression is mostly a result of people retreating into their own thoughts to avoid dealing with uncomfortble feelings. From the relative safety within one’s own thoughts people become disconnected from their bodies. Over time we discover that this disconnection is not only from uncomfortable feelings but also from those which bring us pleasure. that is why people notice they no longer enjoy doing the things they once used to. medication can play a part in elevating a person’s mood but medication can not help someone reconnect with their bodies particular because medications are interfering with the natural processes of the body and mind. and although you thought yourself into this situation you most certainly cannot think your way out of it. despite the crippling nature of depression stripping away your motivation to do anything, doing is the only way to move forward and reclaim your life. It is vitally important to also practice sitting with uncomfortable feelings and learning to be in the present moment, connected with the body. This is where exercises such as mindfulness can be so helpful as they teach you to not only stay in the present but to return when you notice your mind dragging you into the regrets of yesterday or the fears of tomorrow. it is also a good example of how anxiety and depression are so closely related. Both are disorders that involve people getting stuck in their thoughts. there are likely to be some issues, possibly related to core beliefs about yourself and others, that you have constructed as a response to earlier life experiences. These can be identified and reconstructed if you can challenge the logic that was used. These are mostly formed with when we are children or adolescents, so with an adult brain we should be able to be consider them more objectively and reframe them in a more constructive way. these maybe thoughts and feelings of inadequacy and injustice that result in uncomfortable feelings like shame guilt etc. We have developed a. Ultural misconception that there is such thing as good and bad feeliings. This is untrue as feelings are the symptoms of our thoughts and experiences. There are few things more damaging to a peopel than not validating their own experiences. Even if they feel uncomfortable they are 100% valid and you are feeling that way for a reason. if you can learn to stay in the present moment and sit with your uncomfortable feelings you will then be able to address the thoughts and the core beliefs which keep representing these issues in your life. When we focus on fixing the feelings we just never get to address the cause. If you can get that far you will have learned an alternative to intellectualization. you’ve taken the first step which is to reach out and I wish you the very best of luck in finding people who can support you on your journey of recovery. just keep it simple don’t deny your feelings and talk to someone. Kind regards.
Go private
http://www.bupa.co.uk/individuals/health-information/directory/d/depression-children-young-people
http://www.bupa.co.uk/individuals/health-information/directory/d/hi-depression
I’m pretty sure depression is a process that feeds itself. The brain feeds itself all of the depressive thoughts if you keep allowing it to happen. Even I still deal with it to this day. It really makes no sense why it happens either. There should be no reason why i find a way to be depressed but I just somehow do.
What I do is try to feed positive thoughts of myself with self help books. You just have to learn to realize that your negative thoughts about yourself do you no good and you need to try to feed yourself as many positive thoughts as possible. For me I either talk to as many people or do something i really like, like watching one of my favorite TV shows, learning a new combo, playing an RPG, writing a story, etc. anything to get your mind off of depression
Thats about as much as I can help without being a doctor prescribing medication and stuff
I haven’t been happy with myself since I was about 11, I used I to not give a fuck about anybody else and immerse myself in what I loved. Now I worry too much about everything. I get anxious going out sometimes because people always tend to want to fight or rob you in my area (so many instances where I’m just walking and a junkie or whatever shouts at me saying hey motherfucker or some shit, or people getting stabbed happens a lot, e.g. Lee RIgby,) I just wanna get out of here but when I tell people I’m friends with I think I’ve been subconsciously depressed for so long they’ve convinced me and themselves I’m literally just like this and its just me, but its not, cause there’s the rare day my head feels clear and I’m able and not anxious to do certain things.
Also I’m a real hypochondriac I’m always going doctors thinking I have XYZ, and they tell me I’m fine, and I either literally imagine my symptoms or my doctors are pretty negligent. I’ve tried going to the gym but I’m really underweight (6ft, like 126 pounds/9st,) and it takes me ages to see progress, and I end up getting tired and out of energy prematurely at gym and just give up. Also, my family don’t bother buying much food so I eat at most twice a day at home. I honestly feel like I’m stuck and nothings going no where, stuck at home, stuck with gym progress, uni goes wrong, relationship goes wrong, being forced to go job center and find a job, and my home life is like sit at home complaining about life waiting for one of us to crack up and end up in hospital.
Also lol pussy ain’t the remedy, relationships with females don’t work with me right now, too many factors. Sex ain’t that enjoyable.
Studies have shown that people with money are more healthy and happy and people without money are. True fact.
Short answer is. Get money.
Not that easy, trying to get a job. Also I’ve tried smoking weed to feel better, it used to be a cool thing, now the buzz doesn’t feel nice. Same with alcohol. Looking to give up, it’s not good for me, but I am surrounded by it.
Do virtuous activities, ones from which you derive some measurable benefit. Watch Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann. Eat well and do American Powerlifting.
Have you been smoking for a long time?
I mean weed.
about three years
There’s no such thing as depression, it’s called intelligence imbalance. Go plan and create something that interests you and build a strong familiarity with whatever it is that your going to be doing at university
All that matters is that you always make sure you’re ahead of every fucker out there
Ever consider you might be malnourished? Malnutrition is apparently a common problem in the UK. You kinda fit the mold: underweight, listless, depression, no energy…you said yourself there isn’t much food around. I’m guessing you just eat whatever’s there until you’re not hungry any more. Many people have problems caused by a shitty diet, then try to medicate, but keep the shitty diet. Your body needs a proper diet to regulate it’s release of hormones and neurochemicals that make you feel normal or even happy. If you have an insufficient diet, you will feel run down, depressed, and generally look anemic. I’m surprised the doctors you’ve been to haven’t suggested this…then again, different culture, different standards for health.
Yeah I used to be anaemic but then I kinda just stopped taking my tablets and didn’t go for tests lmao, my diet needs serious fixing.
I feel better on medication today I don’t know if that’s a bad thing
I’ve been there man, I’ve suffered severe depression. My copy of Smash didn’t arrive until like 6 days after the release date and I had to endure the pain of pretty much everyone else in the Smash thread having their copy. With this experience, my professional opinion is that the best cure for depression is masturbation.
Being depressed in the UK is the most baller shit ever, get your PIP form sent in and the gov will give you £1000 a month for nothing, ah the joys of living in a socialist paradise where anything that can get abused, gets abused to the fucking hilt.
Paxil 20mg
Seroquel 50mg
Somasina 50mg