@drean Personality disorders run in my family. If I were you, I’d stay away from mood altering drugs. And find some sort of distraction until you can get ahold what your normal is.
And just ignore people for awhile, because socializing while you feel the way that you do is worse for you mentally. When my mood was off balance, it took a while to find stability.
Honestly, I think medicine would make it worse. You probably triggered something that was already there. But mood altering anything makes you feel temporarily happy when you feel otherwise but it doesn’t last forever and it’s probably pushing you further and further from your normal. Blazing up isn’t good for mental illness my nigga.
My advice is to stop smoking MJ for awhile and find something that makes you happy. Or find something that makes you happy, then stop smoking MJ for awhile.
@ParryAll Whilst I agree with most of your post, I just wanted to comment on below quote:
It’s not always like that. Depression has many root causes, there are common cases of people that are clinically depressed, they have a biological malfunction in the region of their brain that regulates their mood. Therapy won’t help in those cases.
The problem is as you rightly say, about doctors being able to prescribe stuff like prozac which originally was for clinical depression only, and not for people going through a rough patch in life. I know I’m sidetracking, but I genuinely dislike that side of the pharma business.
I bet most of you are not clinically depressed, you just have rough spots. My depression doesn’t go away…no matter what I do. The meds help but its still there. My anxiety never goes away. The meds help but its always there. Same goes for my agoraphobia and ptsd.
Im on permanent disability due to my mental issues. I dont go through rough spots and then im better, I go through good spots (and im talking only a couple/few hours here) then go right back to being all that shit up there. Nothing triggers it, it just happens. Like today I was helping my roommate with the internet and it was going fine. Then all of the sudden I started to have a panic attack and had to take some medicine and lay down. When I have panic attacks I start shaking and sweating, feel weak, everything seems louder and if Im out in public it feels like everyone is staring at me…so I cover my ears and start humming and if it gets real bad I start to cry. Its not as bad when Im at home, just sweating, everything sounds loud, and Im all shaky and I feel very weak.
I’ve been chronically depressed since I was 8. I don’t think I’ve had a year where at least a segment or three wasn’t spent in depression since. I’ve always thought it was situational but now I’m worried that it might be clinical.
I’m considering going to get tested but I’ve been on antidepressants when I was younger and hated how drugged I felt.
Not really I think. My psychiatrist diagnosed me with what I have after asking me many, many personal questions, sending me to a therapist, and trying a lot of different meds. The med regimen im on now has worked the best so im sticking with it.
Edit - And just like Missing Person, Ive had issues with depression and anger since I was 8 or so. At that age I was going to see therapist and psychiatrist.
The only person that can truly solve your problems is you and only you. Others can only help, but if you can’t help yourself, you are shit out of luck. All you need to do is focus on the positive, understand why you are feeling the negative then let it go. It will take time for the negative mind-sets to fade away and disappear. A good balanced diet is also key. Medicine helps, but don’t get dependent on it, since that can also lead to problems.
I agree with this. Years ago when I was younger I discovered stuff about myself that wasn’t the same in others, personality wise, but then I met friends and saw the same traits in my father and I realized I wasn’t alone with it. It’s just coming to terms and accepting it. If you can change it, and want to change it, do so, take a long hard look in the mirror and make mental cues about the stuff that bothers you, treat it like reacting to jump ins in a fighting game. If you can’t change it, or don’t want to change it, just embrace it, understand it’s part of you, that not everyone will click with it but that it shouldn’t matter to you if they do or do not. You can always choose not to care.
^Yeah, thirded. Especially personality disorders. You don’t know exactly what you’re dealing with from the doctors yet, so God help you if you have schizophrenia (hopefully not!) and are exacerbating it with drugs.
Happened in my home area about 15 years ago. This kid was known to have schizophrenia and a known drug user, with weed being his most regular indulgence. I don’t remember if he was on anything harder than that when he killed his stepdad, but he was NOT taking his prescribed medication either.
Regardless, weed is generally safe, but if you’ve already got a personality disorder, weed is not going to help it.
I had blood work done for them to tell me my chemicals were imbalanced and I had to talk to doctors before I got diagnosed when I was 15/16. My parents (at the time), didn’t believe the doctors and said I was just doing it for attention, so I didn’t get help until I was older. High school was really rough for me because of lack of support. I had saw another therapist and she strongly suggested I get some but, meh. Meds cost money that I don’t have at the moment.
My mood tanks randomly. I get panic attacks when I think things are overly stressful or I feel like things are spiraling out of my control. I did talk about the garage sound that triggered my panic attack a month or so ago. My thoughts go on a downward spiral and it can take hours to feel at some base emotion. I try to distract my mind as much as I can, but that’s only temporary.
A piece of advice for self hatred is you must learn to love yourself including the parts that you hate. It’s hard to do, it just take time so don’t give up, you will eventually get there if you believe in yourself.
This happens right throughout life. Like if you have a bad back you can bet your ass your work will just expect you to tough it out and put up with it and wont give a damn because either they don’t have it they don’t understand or they don’t want to understand. Same with conditions and phobias, like people don’t get having irrational, reflexive fear of something. They’ll just tell you to get on the plane or just touch the snake it’s harmless without realizing the paralyzing affect it has on you. They just tell you to get over it. It’s really hard to find people that do understand as actual scientific facts are just not enough. Especially when it’s something like their kid having a condition as everyone wants their kids to be perfect they live in denial.
Lmao @drizzt360 My only post in here was speaking on something I know because I am one bad drug trip from being certifiably insane. A lot of people that say “just talk yourself through it, and it’ll be okay” when it comes to schizophrenia. Well obviously none of the ill stuff you see and hear and feel are real. But being constantly like that for awhile you’ll eventually crack and either A)Commit suicide because you can’t take it anymore or B)Attack the things that are disturbing you(if you do believe they are real).
I’m not in that stage of my mental illness but I put myself there with dat mary jane. Day after day of smoking, my mood started feeling wrong. Kept smoking. Started feeling depressed and self destructive. Kept smoking. Started hearing voices. Smoked a little after but stopped.
While I quit I was in a weird state, and I sort of became a shut in because I was trying to get a hold on what I used to be and how I used to feel. I eventually found it after months of having limited interactions with people(Because I still had to work), but I still feel like I’m more serious than I used to be because now I suffer from minor depression.
However, I do think that the outcome could’ve been worse. Time will tell if I have set something in motion earlier than it should’ve happened. I have no problem with drugs and they were fun while the fun lasted. But I strongly recommend not doing them if you suffer from mental illness. A lot of medical reading tells you this, but it doesn’t click until it happens to you.
Just saying: if any of you guys have personality disorders, don’t do anything that’s an amphetamine, mj or psychedelics. Light amounts of alcohol like beers have been okay with me. Problem is that dependency kicks in because life feels better with than without. Eh.
Drug addiction or substance addiction and or mental illness is a fucking bitch to get over since they feed each other. I was addicted to feeling pain since that is all I knew. I have had mental illness ever since I was born. I was born into suffering and pain. My whole life has been pain and suffering mentally, emotionally, and physically.
I am recovering from my addiction to weed and massive amounts of self imposed anxiety/anger/fear/hate (I smoked way too much. It’s like my life depended on it. Without weed, life felt meaningless or really fucking stressful). I was also hooked to coffee, and energy drinks. These only led to more anxiety/fear/hate/anger and massive nerve damage due to over-stimulation of the nervous system. I am actually in a lot of constant physical pain due to a damaged nervous system that is gradually healing itself.
For your information THC is a stimulant and abuse of it can damage you physically (Mainly the nervous system) like with any drug. Smoke itself is also a cause for nerve damage (I smoked so much weed that I inhaled too much smoke) I constantly felt that I need stimulating substances to feel alive. It felt horrible and hellish since the stimulation was never enough (Chasing the dragon). I’m totally glad and grateful I quit all that shit. Drug addiction is often tied with mental illness. People that are mentally ill often turn to drugs for relief, but the drugs itself just makes their illness magnified or masked. Drugs themselves may also cause mental illness.
Drug addiction or addiction in general + mental illness = A problem that only feeds itself until self destruction unless the said person with mental illness and addiction corrects themselves.
Motherfucker!!! Were you born an heroin addict? Get the fuck outta here with weed. I smoke that shit from time to time and I dont get addicted to it. Alchol and pills are what I will get addicted to as I’m a motherfuckin alcoholic and pill popper that doesnt use anymore.
Well many of the leading psychiatrists/psychologists are now treating addiction itself as a disease and studies seem to suggest that people are born with it, or at least are born with a pre-disposition to be an addict. I was addicted to Heroin for 4 years and have been clean since 2012 so I know how hard addiction can be. Contrary to what the poster above me said, weed can certainly been psychologically addicting, you just probably won’t have physical withdrawal symptoms like you would with Opiates/Alcohol. Glad to hear you gave it up if it was causing problems in your life.
