You weren’t cautious, you were quick to run into things and bad shit happened, all over the place, I’m sorry to hear that, but uh, those are the risks you take while doing something like this, and you’re probably looking our for my best self interest but…here’s the thing, you took far more risks with these guys than I do with my long distance relationships, the previous guy came to me first, and so is my current lady. Both of them being mature people with stable minds (who in the fuck wears shoes into bed? you date some sloppy niggas…), if I had the opportunity, I’d still be great friends with my ex-boyfriend, but, he doesn’t want that, I suppose. shrug
You’re only telling me the negatives, there had to have been good times that you had with these people, some of them at least. That’s the entire reason for doing this shit in the first place, good times. You’re holding onto all of this bad shit and acting like it’s adversely effecting your life and that you hate yourself for doing it or some shit, from what I had always gathered? You’re a pretty straight-up and content girl, without these fucked up relationships I don’t think you would be the same today, so deal with it, cherish it and enjoy who you are and the things you’ve done in your life, you flew to California alone to meet a guy you had dated for six months, California kicks fucking ass, enjoy it.
You’re a product of your environment and your own mentality, if you’re not happy with your past and the way you interpret your experiences, that’s your fault. And this is excluding that Florida guy, that guy can go burn in hell.
Maybe I am fucking nuts for doing this, it IS an extremely irresponsible move, but I’m going about it in a cautious and careful way, but I’m not going to hold back emotions for anything in this life, emotions make people.
Don’t be my mom, be hype.