Super cakin. :love:
Can’t help myself, she makes me go nuts.
You can’t get burnt if your heart’s not on your sleeve. Shit.
My Queen’s Tribute to Myself
[details=Spoiler] All you AMAZING, patient and delectible femme bois out there…please know that right now my time is surprisingly caught up in a new relationship that has been totally unexpectedly *blowing my mind *in regards to my concept of compatibility, freedom, fun, and well, pure, unfettered love.
I’m a bit swept away and funneling a lot of my time effortlessly, into this new relationship. I “crush” relatively often…romantic infatuation? Probably every 3 months…okay, maybe every other minute. There have been people with whom I could imagine falling in love…and have experienced sweeping, loving feelings. If you’re on my relationship/fetlife list of lovers…you may very well have felt these experiences and sensations with me.
But falling “in” love where my soul deeply caresses and touches that of another…to the point of feeling our shimmering souls fiercely bond with loyalty, the desire to consistently make each other’s day beam like the brightest star and explore many acres of future possibilities that seem to stretch out endlessly before us? Well, I don’t believe that I’ve experienced that form of love in 14 years. And, to take it a step further…I question whether I’ve [FONT=inherit]ever experienced love so perfect and effortless like this.[/FONT]
This darling dreamboi/girl of a person just hits “dead center” on my rather regally ambitious list of qualities of dream-mate material: enthusiasm and joie de vivre, loyalty, ardor, connectivity, intelligence, kindness, generosity, creativity, sensuality, empathy, dorkiness/zaniness, peacefulnes and voracious sexual appetite. He/she’s neither too kinky nor vanilla…too absent or present…seems to effortlessly shower me with attention and kindness in ways that have only been part of my wildest dreams…and laps up all my sincere praise and compliments…basking and not questioning/shunning a single solitary thing…just totally taking it all in and not doubting or distrusting unnecessarily.
For me to be fully in love…my heart and head have to connect in an explosive “ah ha!”, snap-into-place awareness, that balance where logic and fantasy play in equal parts…creating designs that are both beautiful and make sense- this ties everything I crave and adore together…Again, honestly, this is the first time in well, since I met my longterm partner 14 years ago. It feels exciting, terrifying/daunting (decisions may have to be made), sooooooo loving (there is more identification than any partner I’ve experienced) mystifying (as deep, inexplicable love often is), thrilling, sobering, relaxing, and well you get the picture, most of you have “been there”…falling in love is just sooooooo sweet…and distracting!
Sooooo what does falling in love mean for me, having explored the polyamorous lifestyle and how does it impact upon my other relationships? Am I still polyamorous…(in practice) or no? In the moment and as this progresses, I believe that I’ll be scaling back from the poly lifestyle. There is a much greater desire to fulfill my partner’s needs in the here and now and focus on making our relationship the very, very best and secure it can be. As we’re progressing, it is quite probable that if I choose to break off my longterm relationship (and I do ironically very, very much love my longterm partner) and move in this new direction, that I’ll re-emerge with them in a new relationship paradigm and expression that is all our own and mutually agreed upon. That will never, ever mean that flirting, potential threesomes and fun will be out of the question for either of us…But, it may mean that my partnerships will soon not be as I know them…that they will morph.
There’s still much more exploration to do…contemplation and deciding the scope of this new relationship…but there are simply qualities and shared compatibility here that are too yummy, paramount, and pivatol to pass up. A missed opportunity could mean a missed lifetime of joys and playful experiences of growth, love, and prosperity…or not…maybe 2 years, maybe 5…but hopefully a lifetime.
It honestly tears a bit at me to be drifting and rather inattentive to my other playpartners on here…but the heart simply wants what it wants…and right now, I’m simply crrrrrazy about my AMAZING, OUTRAGEOUSLY HOT, LOVING, SOPHISTICATED, HIGHLY CEREBRAL, CREATIVE and BEAUTIFUL BEYONG BELIEF KING OF LOVE…my deliciously boyishly and rogue-ishly handsome Aaron - my sensual, playful, saucy, Arrielle all in one - channeling Mae West and Marilyn sex appeal with seemingly effortless aplomb. I love you and so enjoyed compiling this tribute to you…which of course, barely scratches the surface to do justice as my experience with you has been incomprehensible in its amazingness!!!
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First meeting is next weekend, not this one, I lost track of what week it was even :lol: