Well… it sucks that it had to end like this, seriously. If any of you were wondering where I was, I was taking a walk. Just so happens the walk took me from PMall to near kennedy station… I had a lot to think about, and well… this is what I decided.
Fuck you.
If you were insulted by this, then it was meant for you (and no… its not just meant for the person you’re all thinking of). I snake you guys, you snake me back. I understand it perfectly now. Sauga is full of snakes, and unfortunately it seems as if I’ve become the biggest snake in Sauga. I wasn’t like this before, and I’m not going ot let myself be like this for the rest of my life. Its everything I hate, and its everything I don’t want to be, and as such… well… For those of you who were insulted, Bye.
We’ve been through a lot, its been great fun, and it sucks I won’t be there to root you on at T7; but I’ve thought back about all the ways that I’ve changed since I’ve been chilling with you guys, and I don’t like it. Its gonna take a lot of work to get me back to my old self and trust me, that’s where I want to be. To think I started to live a marvel lifestyle is just unbelievable. If its what costs my acceptance to med school, I simply couldn’t take it.
Anyways, for all the guys who that previous message obviously didn’t go out to, I’m sorry for letting you down this weekend. Teddy, I really would have loved to team with you, but I had to get out of the scene after what happened. Justin, same to you, sorry… and by that token I guess Gordon too. Any of you guys, I have no problems with you, if you want to meet up for poker, food, anything that isn’t SF related I’m up for it. Just call or MSN.
Me taking myself out of the entire community like this, during the tournament that we’ve all been waiting months to play is what I consider to be the biggest snake I’ve ever done. And well… it’ll be the last I make too. I would have played SF as long as there was an open arcade or working sticks. But well, after today, I realized how bad the sauga crew was for me.
I really don’t want to end it over SRK, but I figure its how it all began, so its fitting that its how it should end. I’ve been here from the first Sauga posts ever to now, and I didn’t think I would ever just decide I was through with it. I guess I never thought Marvel could get so personal.
Just so you know, I was willing to bet my entire life savings with Curt (cause he was telling me that you were obviously going to ditch me for Isaac) saying that I would be teaming with you no matter what. And you know what, I wouldn’t have minded if you teamed with him if you didn’t flat out tell me you were going to team with me. Then today you say “Yo Jason, I’m ditching you”. What a great way to put it. And what was the excuse… “Isaac thinks you suck, so we gotta take Dark Dragon over you”. That’s just great, thanx for the vote of confidence. Team with someone you barely know, who DITCHED you during ECCXI after saying he’d team with you, and take his advice about how much I apparently suck. I realized after I heard that that I could be as good as I want at the game, but there’s no point. I honestly don’t think I could have lost that streak after you said that to me, because I had lost any love I had for the game at all, any reason to let the other guy have a chance. Sure I could win, but was it worth it?
I honestly believe it wasn’t.
Tao pointed out all my flaws in one big post, but he missed the biggest one of all. I never knew before when to break a promise to a friend for personal gain. I guess this is the only way to get to the top, as it seems to be a trend with you top players, but I figure if I’m going to be doing something like that it might as well be for more than a couple hundred bucks (probably less to be honest…) And before you come saying that I joined Eye Candy (obviously being dishonest to you guys /sarcasm) I NEVER ONCE said I would join a guild with you. I said I transfered over to join Eye Candy. Sure it was a snake, and I’m not proud of it, but it wasn’t near what Bry did to me. I never said I would join you guys, I never promised that we would stick together, find a tough third player and dominate.
I honestly hope it was worth it for you. What did you gain? Maybe it was 2nd place money over 3rd, even though you’d probably get the same ranking even if you didn’t have Isaac. You let Isaac call the shots, to put on a worse player because he doesn’t like me. WTF were you thinking. People think I wasn’t listening, but while playing my streak I heard every fucking word. Great way of dealing with a tough situation… And you know, I wouldn’t even have been listening to everybody talking if it wasn’t for the looks that you/Isaac/Poeta had on your faces when you marched into Orbit. Isaac had a stupid grin on his face, just staring at me, proud of his soon-to-be accomplishment. Poeta was trying to huddle in, get in on the top player conversation, seemingly hoping they would drop dark dragon for himself. And Bry walked in with the face he has when he has Pocket Aces but is trying to not let anybody know. That stupid smile as if to say everything I say after this point is complete BS, but my actions show exactly what I have in mind. Don’t kid me guy (I deleted buddy, which for some reason was the automatic thing for me to type instead of man… and then I deleted man and put guy since I figured you didn’t deserve that either), as soon as Isaac told you Ski wasn’t going to be there on time, you jumped for the opportunity. And as soon as Isaac told you he wasn’t teaming with me, you had already made up your mind. I know you better than you think, don’t lie to yourself about this one.
BTW, just so you know, it wasn’t this event alone that caused me to leave. Its been piling and piling, and today was just the catalyst that seemed to make me take the hike (a long one to be honest… steeles is far from Kennedy Station). I guess the next time I’ll see the people the hearty Fuck You was meant for will be when I’m a doctor. Hopefully by then I’ll be back to my old self, but obviously improved. To the rest of you, again, feel free to talk, but remember I put SF behind me.
Also, there’s no use replying to this if you want me to read it, I’m never coming back to this page again. I’ll find the results some other way.
Oh yeah… and have fun in Fallen Exiles. I really would have wanted to be there, but “I’m sorry, I gotta win the money” (As Bry said in the last conversation we had as I was passing my first bus stop.)
