Na, it’s cool. I stopped counting words looong ago. I just want to get somewhere good. If I can create a story, I’m good.
On top of all the other crap I posted that’s going on for me, I’m separating with my wife… Yeah… but…
… Writing is never complete, only due. :tup:
Oh, and I now have an excerpt up for my novel:
Hardships of a White Knight
[details=Spoiler]The highest turnout for a crowd watching The Break was somewhere in the 500’s. An exact estimate is unknown, since the occurrence predates the use of tickets, but frugal estimates say anywhere from five to seven-hundred people. For this year’s Break, that number would most probably be surpassed, since at least 600 tickets had already been checked. That meant a number of people the size of the entire population of Mercaster, plus at least 100 or so from the surrounding provinces were in attendance. Most assuredly, there were soldiers, military officers from Challen and Sal Hadria in attendance, keen to keep an eye on the future White Knight’s of Mercaster.
Makeshift seating , made to accommodate as many as possible on the small knoll which housed the school, was available. The people crowded these seats and, when full, crowds still came and were forced to sit upon a nearby hill and make use of the highly popular optics technology that was all the recent rage to view the combat from afar. Upon the hill there were mostly the richer viewers and their servants.
Balane looked out at that hill, normally inconspicuous, but now highly visible with upwards of 150 or more people crowded onto one side of it. He wondered whether or not one of those servants, some boy or girl was there, admiring him and his fellow classmates as they completed a fateful journey. He wondered if he could make a difference in the heart and mind of just one of those servants, let them know that there was always more. That they, like him, had a choice in life whether or not they were actually notified of it by their superiors. In fact, even that, superiority of one class above another, was nothing more than a mere illusion, an illusion that he had shattered and pushed his way through to the truth that had laid waiting, ever so patiently, within himself.
The days of his being a knife-wielding boy were over.
He looked over towards his superior, Wvinski - the very same officer who discovered him standing up to the bully Marc not three years earlier - and smiled. He knew. He knew that he was smiling because the audience out there upon the hill and packed into those rickety stands were his people, there for him. He looked at Marc, smug as ever, but not in the bad way, now. Balane learned, slow and hard, that Marc’s superiority was something very similar to the driving force within himself. Marc’s life, while one of privilege, wasn’t perfect either. He too had overcome serious obstacles to reach the point he was at, and had learned to control his temper, ease his manner and be a fine leader and soldier. In fact, Balane was privately comforted by the fact that he would not be matched against Marc today.
Then, of course, there was the girl, Maely, to whom he was matched. For three weeks, Balane had been searching for an alternative to the word “hate.” He needed something to call what he felt for Maely D’Giroux. He knew hate to be too strong a word, indeed, for a fellow soldier to whom his life may one day rely, but there was something deep-seated within this small girl that just would not stop. It didn’t rest. It didn’t sleep. It didn’t even bat an eye. And that was why Balane settled on the word “fear” to use in reference to what he felt for Maely D’Giroux.
When he learned that he was to combat against her as his closing exercise opponent, he was mortified with “fear.”
Of course, Maely wasn’t overtly fearful. There was absolutely nothing about her physical stature that made her seem imposing or threatening, nor did she exude any form of psychological trauma. She simply had a will to succeed that Balane - in his research for an adjective descriptive of the girl - had discovered another word for: “uncanny.” Balane wasn’t scared of being wounded. Nor did he fear humiliation. What he feared most was losing his chance to become a knight. And combating with Maely D’Giroux was perhaps the best way to ensure he did just that.
He went over pertinant combat tactics in his head. Maely’s offense wasn’t directly overpowering in the least. Her defense was strong, but nothing Balane couldn’t penetrate with enough determination. Maely was a swift fighter, not a strong one. Normally, you could tire out a swift fighter, one that was too fast to hit, wear him out over time; Normally. Maely, however, was an altogether different sort of fastblade. She couldn’t be hit. She never ended a move in the wrong stance, but most assuredly in the position best suited to defend against your slim attack options. And she never, ever, tired out. In the three years Balane had been watching those lighting fast feet, never had he seen them stumble due to exhaustion, not even during the longest battles. After so long, one of her rapid strikes were sure to land.
He felt that he had but one slim option available to him to assure an easy victory and that was to quickly overcome her before she had a chance to become sure of herself. Balane had never seen it, but he hoped that within her, that stern-faced indefatigable machine of a fighter, was the exact same thing he knew to be present in himself, in people like Marc, and even in Wvinski, his capable warrior trainer: “fear”.
Fear. The only difference between them was that Maely thrived on it, he had only recently realized. And for reasons Balane could understand. How would any of them know what it’s like to face a male opponent, larger, stronger and more experienced, as a female? Sure, history was packed full of famous women warriors, like Treshae Lermonde, or Brandty Wentz ‘The Gleam’, but those legends were as exaggerated as they were old. And if what Balane had been told by his superior officers was true, then fear can be used both as a weakness and as a weapon.
Still, none that Balane could think of had ever wielded “fear” against Maely D’Giroux. At least not until today.
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